things are the way they are ’cause they got that way
Current Mood: 
Rolls eyes & 
Argh
i heard that today in a training class and thought ‘that explains so much’. but then how do they get that way? cause WE let them.
why was i at work at 8pm tonight… cause i let it get that way. because for some bizarre reason i am actually concerned that what i do gets done even if i am stuck in icky icky boring annoying process improvement training for an entire week
why is the giggle wiggle a total brat… cause we let him get that way. he got away with everything when he was little cause the pep hated him.
why is boom totally spoiled so rotten…. cause he’s so cute and he’s a mommas boy
why is my kitchen piled high with dirty crusty dishes…. cause i didn’t get up off my fat ass and wash them
or does this just bring to light our inadequacies as humans and try to make us acknowledge things we’d rather just ignore….
why does my life get so fucked up… cause i let it. they say the first thing is to acknowledge there is a problem. so true but easier said then done. it much easier to ignore some things…. like……
why do i do the strange parking thing that i do (if you have ridden with me, you know what i’m referring to)… cause i have ocd… but i try to overlook that aspect of myself (see giant collection of hello kitty stuff or diagram of newest way to re-arrange furniture)
or the whole ‘rents house drama…. if i open my mouth scary things might come out… again…. cause they don’t want reality, not really and i really don’t need to start that ‘fight’ again… well not right now anyway
i guess we have to pick what we can fix (lean out), what we have to accept how it is and what we’d rather ignore all together
that being said… time for another natty…. to much sanity for one night