Who Stole My Crayons?

Current Mood: Happy

mmmmmmm, have reservations tonight at ruth chris tonight with ccb and rr. yum can’t wait.  tasty beverage, tasty food, gift cert and summer special menu.

you know you are jealous

Current Mood: Argh

so i actually had a dream. actually i probably dream a bunch but i just usually never remember any of them.  this morning is did.

it was a seemingly long bizzarre dream which lots of uneventful silliness and strangness that i won’t get into… but then i was in a weird office and someone i didn’t really know came up and just laid me off. wtf? then someone i do know at work (who is not known to be pleasant) came up and was like here’s your packet and handed me the infamous white envelope.  then she smiled and walked away. (not a fake smile the big ‘haha’ smile)

i was pissed, really pissed (asshats) and had a mini hissy fit including throwing my crappy work phone, making a loud statement alone the lines of ‘are you serious? this is bullshit’ and i left.  then i woke up and i was pissed. lol

so now i sit here an wonder, was the dream a product of unending stress at work that includes more job responsibility changes and constant worry about the next ‘redcution in force’ or it a preminission of things to come….  hummmmm….. i think i’ll be working on my resume later just to be safe (and secretly stash some boxes so i can slowly bring some personal stuff home from my office)

what a great way to start the weekend

Current Mood: Eek

yes bad me, no posting

been a bit crazy with multiple layoffs at work and another rumored to be soon (but i’m still there), but no raises, no bonus’, no 401k match… wonder what they will cut next?

my job roles have changed at least 3 times and i just got my 2009 goals (and the year is half freakin over)  luckily some are done but one won’t make the timeline, oh well tough shit

harddrive in the lappy died last month, thank goodness for applecare because i about had a coronary thinking it was dead and luckily had backed up the entire harddrive 2 weeks before-only lost some music and itunes was nice enough to let me re-download it

finally recognized/realized that i cannot take two college classes, work full time, take care of 3 ferret, keep the condo semi clean and stay sane all at the same time.  new plan it for one class at a time (yes it will take longer but oh well) and set asside some me time

decided to change my major to information systems management with a minor in business admin since i do so much IT crap now may as well get paid for it (plus way more options in that field)  i wonder if i’ll ever finish school at this point

well off to make dinner that i should have started half an hour ago but was busy goofing off with the boys

I hate the world today
Your so good to me, I know
But I cant change
Tried to tell you but you looked at me like maybe Im an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how youd be so confused
I dont envy you
Im a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

Im a bitch
Im a lover
Im a child
Im a mother
Im a sinner
Im a saint
I do not feel ashamed
Im your hell
Im your dream
Im nothing in between
You know you wouldnt want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean youll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And Im going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today wont mean a thing

Im a bitch
Im a lover
Im a child
Im a mother
Im a sinner
Im a saint
I do not feel ashamed
Im your hell
Im your dream
Im nothing in between
You know you wouldnt want it any other way

Just when you think you got me figured out
The seasons already changin
I think its cool you do whatcha do
And dont try to save me

Im a bitch
Im a lover
Im a child
Im a mother
Im a sinner
Im a saint
I do not feel ashamed
Im your hell
Im you dream
Im nothing in between
You know you wouldnt want it any other way

Im a bitch
Im a tease
Im a goddess on my knees
When youre hurt
When you suffer
Im your angel undercover
Ive been numb
Im revived
Cant say Im not alive
You know I wouldnt want it any other way

Current Mood: Esctatic

its been a really shitty year so far.  i’m so busy and stressed at work most days i don’t what the hell is going on.  but at least i still have a job.   its been really cold, snowing and dismal too which hasn’t really help my mood at all.   and the gas & electric bill is enough to give anyone heartburn.

but, something strange happened…. i’m in a good mood

i had the first chipmunk sighting of the year so spring must be on its way.  also the bulbs in teh triangle of dirt are starting to come up!!!  Amazingly after being 8 degress earlier this week, today they are calling for 70’s. woohoo, plan on opening up the house today and washing some stinky furkids.

i checked my bank account and miraculously there is actually some money left in there.  scary.  not sure how that happened, everything got paid so woohoo for me!

getting a new used 50 inch tv later today. after rearraning a bunch of furniture i’ll be playing my new favorite game, house of the dead overkill!

while checking some sites yesterday, i saw that (GASP) NIN is coming to merriweather in JUNE!!! OMG yoda and i are so going to that regardless of ticket price.  that might even be more fun then seeing combichrist at teh recher in February.

so last night i sat on (aka babysat) vance for yoda.

i got to watch 1.5 hours of whats new scooby do while having a static electricity fight with a four year old. i’m pretty sure he won the battle but i won the war of bedtime.

vance is a good kid and i don’t mind sitting him, at least as long as he has healthy respect for my authority (aka until he’s about twice as old as he is now)

Current Mood: Argh & Eek

its been a rough year so far.

layoffs at work- i still have a job but lost a lot of friends which really sucks.  its becoming a frequent occurrence for lots of people in all industries.  very stressful for those who left and those who are left.

lots of stuff to do at work- inherited some more tasks and there is more pressure  to produce.  i’m behind and feel buried even though i’ve done more in the 2 weeks this then an average month.   luckily tomorrow is a holiday for me so i’m hoping to get a bunch of stuff caught up. which is good because i have a bunch of projects getting ready to come down from my manager.

had to replace the hot water heater- while cleaning and organizing the upstairs closet i noted a bunch of rust along the bottom  of the old one.  so rr had to get a new one before the old one broke and flooded.  ouch, they aren’t cheap

school starts today- and my course schedules are packed.  it going to be crazy busy between work and my two courses this semester. it seems like i am already behind…. lol….

but there are good things too- the cars paid off so there is a bit less finacial pressure on my budget,  my friend ccb is getting ready for an awesome vacation to scotland, all he furry kids are healthy and going to a pet expo next weekend.  been eating better then usual and lost a little.  starting back up at the y this week with yoda.

just have to remember to breathe……

while randomly surfing the interwebs this morning while watching the irritating news, i cam across a new blog that i found interesting. i’ll be keeping an eye on it to see where it goes

http://www.freemicroloan.com/

check it out and take the quiz

happy new year

hope everyone had a great holiday season

its been a totally jacked up 2008, raise a shot glass for a better 2009!

woohoo

there is a new and FREE nine inch nails song available!!

http://dl.nin.com/discipline/nin